The Spirit Brat Podcast
Spirit Brat is my story of stumbling into mystical experiences I did not ask for, and the real-world chaos they prepared me to face. Along the way, I wrestled with an undiagnosed dissociative disorder and tried to make sense of it through psychology, Buddhism, Hinduism, yoga, Catholicism, the LDS Church, and New Age circles. None of it went in order, and none of it was neat, but all of it shaped how I survived a coercive relationship with a Special Warfare veteran who later admitted he was hunting me.
This podcast is not just about survival. It is about how the divine kept showing up in my life, even when I had no reverence, and even when religions contradicted each other. Spirit Brat is where mystical awe meets blunt honesty, and where spiritual highs crash into the gritty reality of what it takes to keep living. I am proof that when the Gods matter the religions don't.
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Episodes
Saturday Aug 02, 2025
Saturday Aug 02, 2025
In this first episode of Spirit Brat, I share mystical moments from childhood and early marriage that shaped my view of the divine. It’s where the name Spirit Brat comes from, someone who took miracles for granted like most people take wifi for granted. If that’s ever been you, listen in.
Sunday Aug 03, 2025
Sunday Aug 03, 2025
This chapter traces the foundation of my healing: having an army nurse on a plane tell me I needed to read about psychology. This person's advice gave me the permission (I didn't know I needed) to look at behavior as pathology and not just as an annoyance that my husband had peed on a wall or thrown a dresser at me... and this would evolve into an astute ability to notice my own psychological patterns. TW's as per usual.
Saturday Aug 09, 2025
Saturday Aug 09, 2025
Using chakra healing to abstract my trauma, recode my responses and why I let someone else pick my spirit guide.
Saturday Aug 09, 2025
Saturday Aug 09, 2025
Using meditation to hack my brain’s reflexes, merging fainting and sleepwalking into a controlled state.
Sunday Aug 10, 2025
Sunday Aug 10, 2025
I accidentally joined a cult because of a conversation about children's .
Monday Aug 11, 2025
Monday Aug 11, 2025
In yoga school, mystical experiences came into focus, validated by philosophy, community, and the unexpected gift of explanation.
Tuesday Aug 12, 2025
Tuesday Aug 12, 2025
I asked the universe for guidance and got seven seminarians at the pool instead of ghostly spirit guides. Zero flirt, maximum philosophy—and suddenly I realized how different life feels when you’re not a target. This episode is me laughing my way through that plot twist and how it changed the way I trust nudges.
Tuesday Aug 12, 2025
Tuesday Aug 12, 2025
Hypnosis Mom tells me to abandon my daughter, I cut her off energetically and subsequently notice an interesting effect on her meditation.
Wednesday Aug 13, 2025
Wednesday Aug 13, 2025
A Superbowl half-time performance prompts a mystical experience that answers my months long question about gratitude. Also, sound is a bit off, I forgot my microphone.
Wednesday Aug 13, 2025
Wednesday Aug 13, 2025
This one is based on a journal entry of a mystical experience and is written as I experienced it, with basically no infrastructure to process it. If you like puzzles or detective work go for it. It's a great representation of dissociation and can be hard to follow. Years later, it's still causing dissociation in me.. so, keep that in mind. The next episode will have a streamlined version.