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Spirit Brat is my story of stumbling into mystical experiences I did not ask for, and the real-world chaos they prepared me to face. Along the way, I wrestled with an undiagnosed dissociative disorder and tried to make sense of it through psychology, Buddhism, Hinduism, yoga, Catholicism, the LDS Church, and New Age circles. None of it went in order, and none of it was neat, but all of it shaped how I survived a coercive relationship with a Special Warfare veteran who later admitted he was hunting me.

This podcast is not just about survival. It is about how the divine kept showing up in my life, even when I had no reverence, and even when religions contradicted each other. Spirit Brat is where mystical awe meets blunt honesty, and where spiritual highs crash into the gritty reality of what it takes to keep living. I am proof that when the Gods matter the religions don't.

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After “the handshake,” a call drops me into trance calm, a white-light intervention, and 48 hours of tears and vivid dreams. I begin to unpack the aftermath. Content advisory:
Religious themes, dissociation, suicidal ideation briefly referenced (non-graphic), emotional abuse, brief sexual harassment mention.

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